Christmas While We Wait: Day Six.

DAY SIX The new thing. I remember another mother giving advice about how to manage the day-to-day circus of restless kids. She advised that when children become restless, it’s helpful to change rooms in the house. Something so practical became a profound staple in my parenting toolbox. I wonder if we’re feeling restless as we…

Christmas While We Wait: Day Five.

DAY FIVE When grief sounds like envy. Seeing a mom and daughter together can thrust me into the blur of what should have been. The holiday season is replete with reminders. The complicated pangs of grief too easily twist themselves into envy and bitterness. Why do they get that life, and why do I not?…

Christmas While We Wait: Day Four.

DAY FOUR Progress is Messy. We have been doing a laundry list of home improvement projects, and the mess of remodeling has persisted for months. I find the chaos of house projects unnerving and some days, I’m on the brink of quiet implosion. Stuff everywhere. Dust everywhere. Tools everywhere. Why can’t I get perspective? Progress—we…

Christmas While We Wait: Day Three.

DAY THREE The Chip on My Shoulder. Two days after Mom died, I walked aimlessly around Costco, dizzy with shock. Whose life is this? I found myself in the refrigerated produce section lost in a fog, blocking traffic. You’re supposed to go the other way, another customer instructed. I mumbled an apology. Can’t you see…

Christmas While We Wait: Day Two.

DAY TWO Can I skip this year? It was an early snow this first year without Mom. She loved the change of seasons. Once the snow hit the ground, its pristine white took on a golden hue because of the pigmented Fall leaves still covering the ground beneath. –As if Fall was saying, I’m not…

Christmas While We Wait: Day One.

DAY ONE Why am I so upended? I wonder if you’ll set his place at the table –even though he’s gone. And I wonder if you’ll play her favorite song –even though she’s not there to dance. There isn’t a right answer, and I hope you’ll let yourself hang in this place for a moment….

Christmas While We Wait: An Introduction.

I N T R O D U C T I O N. This blog series arose out of the dread I feel for the holidays. It’s our first Christmas without Mom, one of my closest people. Putting that in writing makes it all too real. Can we skip the holidays this year? Not necessarily, but we can use pain to cut loose…

Christmas While We Wait: 12 Devotionals for Holiday Grief.

A Note to Readers— Dear friend, if you find yourself dreading the holidays, I hope you know you’re not alone in this place. This is our first Christmas without Mom. It pains me to see those words on my screen. I started writing a Christmas devotional for you, but somewhere in the middle—I realized I…

If you find yourself discontented.

If I’m bent out of shape because something’s not going my way, that something’s likely out of order. Because if that something is ordered under His Lordship, then my Peace remains unaffected by results. If you’re straining toward something and can’t have enough, there’s likely something deeper here for you. Something you’re not finding in…